I know of a great way to take your mind off things.
Use some type of program where you can write. Like word for instance. And just start writing an RPG. This is how I did mine. I started from scratch, using other ideas from various things and books and mixing it up. Tweaked a lot of it and I had an RPG right in front of my eyes. And it only took me about an hour or so.
Look I did it for the same reason, though not over a death but over stress. It's a great way to relieve stress and have some fun. But hosting RPG's requires a ton of creativity and a lot of dedication, just remember that. From this I can tell you have that creativity, but it should be more expansive. Explain more. It's way too straight to the point.
Then again this isn't my RPG and everyone does there's differently.
Just some tips though. Good Luck... Btw don't create another one yet, leave these and advertise them, or focus on one and cancel your other ones.