just think of someway to die. it doesn't have to be suicide or slow just make it so bloody and disgusting that you wouldn't even want to look at a person who has died that way.
I've heard of ways by applying sharp pointed metal rods to your pressure points which wouldn't kill you it would stablelize your body. Then someone would remove you organs while you alive. I believe this is a Chinese method. On record one man was tortured and survived just long enough to see his heart still beating outside his body. Yeah, it probably as bad as it sounds.
