You start small. NEVER read the Old Testament the first time you read the bible. Start with a gospel (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John) and slowly work your way through the rest of the New Testament. The Holy Spirit can easily intercede and help in understanding of the text; and the New Testament is never contested as being true by the Christian community. Imagine it as our evolution, there's a few factions that violently disagree but they never provide good reason.
So, let's suppose I was a god and I had my own version of a bible.
"He took a bat and beat the homeless man's face in."
It sounds bad, but with the Holy Spirit helping you, you will understand that I wasn't talking about beating a homeless man's face in. In all reality, I was talking about caring for the homeless with a stable attitude.
It's not a matter of the bible sounding confusing. It's a matter of the bible contradicting itself. It's a matter of the bible saying things that you don't agree with. The holy spirit isn't guiding you to understand the bible any better, you are simply refusing to accept that God breaks his own rules.
Here's what I don't get. If you are a good person who chooses not to believe in God, you go to hell. If he is such a loving God, why doesn't he show mercy to those who don't believe in him? Let's face it, God is VERY vague when it comes to his existence. In fact, the only link between God and reality is the bible. Without the bible, there would be no faith, no belief, no prayer. So surely an all powerful and fair God would understand why people would doubt him, because it is so easy for them to do. Those people who choose not to believe in God aren't stupid, for many brilliant people are atheist or agnostic.
Also, it's hard to simply believe in something. If I don't believe in God, why should I go to hell for something I simply believe (or don't believe) in? It's not that I'm choosing not to believe in God. It's not something that can be helped. If God is real, and someone doesn't believe in him, how is it fair to send that person to hell when they simply don't see the evidence to believe in him? It's not like they are intentionally trying to harm God or disobey him.
Let's say you do believe in the bible. Every time you run into something you don't like, you change its meaning. The one lady who looked back upon a burning village was turned to a pillar of salt. All she did was look at the village. Suppose I had a son. What would you think if I stabbed him in the heart simply because wore a blue shirt when I distinctly told him to wear a red one?
Moses was protected as he floated down the river. He grew up to become a messenger of God. He stood up to the pharaoh TEN TIMES, demanding that his people be freed. Moses helped protect the Jews from each and every plague. Moses lead his people out of Egypt. Moses brought the 10 commandments to his people. Moses scolded those who worshiped a golden ox.
Moses taps a rock so that water may flow from it. It doesn't happen the first time so Moses tries again. He didn't do it because he was trying to despise God, he did it because it didn't work the first time. God tells Moses "I told you to hit the rock ONCE. Because you have disobeyed me (despite that it wasn't your intention to do so), I shall not allow you to enter the promised land.
What a dick move.