well, i had done some cool things that i like a lot, but i'm like, always angry, frustrated, annoyed, anxious, there's always something very wrong, i'm always afraid of doing a wrong choice and it ruining my life forever, i feel like if i could never fail otherwise everyone will hate me, i feel too much responsability that i can't handle all at once, i haven't done almost nothing of the things i want to do in my life, i'm nearly always sad, bored, feeling down, i feel like if time was going too slow and too fast all at once, i'm like, always stressed, i feel like if nothing was going to finish well, and i usually think "there were people who were in a better situation than me and have failed badly in a lot of things, why wouldn't i fail too?", i don't like my country, so, i think i could give up... UNTIL I REMEMBER HOW WEAK GIVING UP IS, SO I GIVE UP OF BEING WEAK! and then, after i do that decision, things go downhill again... i'm almost getting used with that, and also, i always feel like if i were too lazy and too weak to change, i think like "i don't have the psychological capacity to do anything right, and it's everyday the same thing
