ok so some of you may have looked at my thread about how me and my friend got in a fight and stuff.
well ever since ive just been pissed and mad a everyone and people are starting to notice and start lecturing me about stuff and now im getting even more pissed.
i dont know about anyone else but for me when people tell me how i need to stop being so angry it gets me even more angry and really hate being mean to everyone.
its been like this for almost a week, so what can i do to just calm down already and stop flipping out on everyone. i already broke my phone today. (doesnt matter i get paid in like 2 days)
ya cause last night i was like "jeez you know what i wanna d? i wanna just take a sledge hammer and just start smashing ****... that would make me feel better
I just went outside with a dull hatchet and mutilated a tree that had to come down anyways. I must say that I feel much better for it, especially because I used muscles that I hadn't in quite some time while doing it.
I find something that i dont want i beat the living hell out of it until it begs for mercy. i usually get tired after my path of destruction then i fall asleep and wake up with a headache wandering what happend.
if i am really pissed its usually because of my parents. and i know it makes them mad when i leave so thats what i do. i leave. it makes them mad and makes me calm down cause i know they are getting pissed.
but now there is the question of where to go? they have looked but never have found me at the for sale house down the street. its down a dirt driveway and in the forest. no one else goes there but me and i just chill on the roof and look at the clouds...
I get angry almost all the times because of my parents and my younger brother. I go to another room, close the door and listen to music to calm myself and if they start banging at the door, I go out for a walk lasting for about half an hour which really calms me down.
I am a very dangerous person when I am angry cause people might get hurt though there are somethings that calms me down.
The top 5 is:
1.Reading
Reading calms my mind actually, I've read 3 books of Harry Potter, all of Percy Jackson and the Olympians, all of Belgariad, a book of Malloreon, 3 books of Demonata and all of Darren Shan Saga. I am just crazy about books. Fave genre is fantasy,adventure and mystery but I also read a little bit of romance.
2.Chocolate:
I really really really love chocolate. Especially the white one, they are so sweet and delicious.
3.Music:
I would sometimes go around hearing my fave songs and such and would sing a long though sometimes I do it to annoy people.
4.Talk
Sometimes I talk to people and other people will get annoyed because of my loud voice, which is my fave thing to do at people which brings to;
5.Annoy
I will annoy my friends as much as I can, that sometimes, it could result to some mockery(A day without a mocking isn't a day at all).
1: a hot bath xD ,but seriously i love bathing mehself :P 2: Moder Warfare!! (2) jesus people i love it! 3: kicking people around me -.-' 4: playing with meh Husky (dog breed for those that dont know -.-' 5: eating lazagna xD
Well, rain has always worked to calm me down, hurricane Alex is making landfall right now, I'm getting a few of the bands, and I really couldn't feel much more relaxed. Just prop an umbrella and wear a slicker or something.
when i'm angry i usually try to ignore it but most the time that doesn't work so i usally just play some classic game on the Xbox 360 and listen to my favorite music
